Journey to a bfp-7

I really hate to start off like this but im a little upsett,another one of my friends just announced her pregnancy on facebook.
I never thought ttc would hurt so much and im really starting to believe i cant handle any more heartache, I pray that baby inmon really appreciate me as a mother..as I think i have taken my own mother for granted and underestimated motherhood completely.
I now see motherhood in a different light and whenever god does bless us with a baby i really believe that my own struggles ttc will alllow me to be more patient and understanding.
On other news rj and I set a date to be married 08.20.11 only 7 months away so we will be "not trying not preventing" until after the wedding..i doubt that i will be pregnant by then...but once the wedding is over we will be all about baby baby baby!! And hopefully IUI or IVF it doesnt matter im just ready to be pregnant.
To day is CD 16 i stopped temping this cycle because im getting a cold and my temps were hectic. I think i ovulated fri or saturday,and rj and i had a chance to BD thursday and a few times friday and none at all saturday..until next week see ya latter

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Journey to a BFP-6

I guess im moody this cycle today is CD3 after 16 months of trying to get pregnant i thought i would have my emotions under control, One minute i just want to give up on getting pregnant and the next im like a mad woman on the internet looking up fertility clinics,treatment for PCOS and buying lubricants,ovulation test and what ever else i can get my hands on.

I had a slip in fall accident september 2010 and last week i found that i have a bulging disc on my L3,L4 and L5 vertabrae and i was diagnoist with Scollosis,. I believe all my issues are related to my Cerebral Palsy but the slip-in-fall only caused more damage and pain. I will see my doctor about me TTC and having cerebral palsy in a few more weeks (my pediatric doctor back in 2004-2005 said that i would need surgerey on my back latter in life) hopefully that time isnt coming up any time soon...but if it should TTC would for surely be postponed.

Rajah and I decided wether or not if we dont buy our house feb/march we are still going to move and rent a place and i just cant wait.
I did my online application today at the community college i will be attending and started my FAFSA application so everything will be in order when march rolls around and the next semester begin.
We are taking the two hour drive this weekend to go look at more houses and meet with an adviser at the college.

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