Journey to a BFP-5 cycle 16(active ttc)

Happy new years every one!!
I thought this would have been the day i finally get to celebrate my bfp af is due to day ive been cramping off and on and my temp drop friday morning i also have that feeling like im flowing so i've been on panty check patrol most of the day. I initally was ok with the thought of not being pregnant until i went out to the stores and it seems like every pregnant woman in florida decided to come to the same store as me,a simple task as going to the store is becomming dreadful because it makes my emotions go all over the place.
Any way far as this cycle goes i will be charting,and drinking spearmint tea and possibly using preseed.

[WORDS TO MY FUTURE CHILD] only god knows my true heart desires to have you within my womb,close to my heart were we would share our biggest and one of our most special bonding moments,you have yet to be created and already you are loved by your father and me. Today he(your dad) has said how crazy we both are going to be from the lack of sleep because he will be working the night shift and i will be up with you and having to go to class the next morning and he will be left looking after you even when hes just getting home from work...i told him you would would be a good baby..right??
Well anyway mommy and daddy are doing our best to buy a house before you are born and we hope you like it.

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Journey to a BFP-4 (dealing with pregnancy announcements)

I hate them..i really do!! I mean im happy for them overall but sad for myself,i mean everyone should have the right to announce there pregnancy and be happy..but for me its kinda like tourture your even more egar then before to get pregnant and month after month the disappointment builds up with no end in sight and all the while your friend or whom ever belly is growing and its just another reminder of your empty uterus.
At some point i wish this process was easier to deal with,but sadly it never is. Ive secretly wanted this child since i was 16 but at that age i knew that it wasnt a good idea because i needed to establish my self first i made a deal with god when i was about 17 that i would get my life together first and allow him to handle everything else...well i have made plenty of mistakes im 21 now but my life is on track not perfect but my head is above water. It seems silly but i think god may have heard my prayer and wont allow me to concieve until he feels im ready...but i feel like im ready..i pray that he has mercy on me bless me with this child.

Today is 10 dpo and ive been having heart burn,strong sense of smell and maybe a little sleepier then usual..i really want to test but im going to try to hold off until jan 1st the day af is due.
No more news about Rj and i were still looking to move but also looking for jobs and they are hard to come by in fort.myers. It would be awesome to get a BFP and move into our new home at the same time.

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journey to a BFP-3

So today is 4 dpo and no symptoms yet but of course its to early. I feel so positive about this cycle. I thought rj and i wouldnt be able to have sex around ovulation but to my surprise we had lots of time to get rj "little men" to where they need to be. Af is due on new years so if i have really good symptoms i may test new years eve but if no symptoms i wont test.
On other news rj and I went house hunting this past weekend and we saw really nice properties but they werent for us,so maybe after the holidays we will make the two hour drive and go look at some places,the county that were looking to move to has very little jobs but hopefully rj finds something soon so we can relocate...its so peaceful there and we both feel comfortable raising children there..hopefully this is gods will and we get our bfp in 10 more days

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cd 13 opk (control line to the left test line on the right)

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journey to a BFP-2

hey bloggers, its Bri
I'm currently on CD13 and i usually ovulate on CD14 but a this point it  doesn't matter i know in my previous post i said decemeber cycle its on,but we have hardly done any baby dancing and im pretty fed up with TTC all together i feel ike this has consumed my life,my emotions are every where im happy,sad,aggravated,mad..you name it i feel it.
Its really hard to babydance when Rj is living across town during the week for work but thank god in a few more weeks he will be moving back in with me and im sure that in it self will increase our chances.

I havent posted this in my previous blog but i have Cerebral palsy (mildly) it affects my walking and ive had surgery after surgery since i was 4 years old and after the 7th surgery i stopp counting...tho painful the surgeries has benefited me to the point where i dont need any assistance walking (never have)...but im able to live a pretty normal lifestyle. I'm not sure if CP will affect my chances  of pregnancy and im starting to wonder now sice we havent gotten pregnant so im thinking its time to make an appointment with my orthpedic doctor..right now my back gives me plenty of problems so i know once were pregnant and the baby is growing i will be in pain so im warning you guys now my pregnancy bloggs  maybe filled with complaints.. years ago my doctor told me that i will need surgery on my spine because its starting to curve so idk how the epidural is going to work out and i may have to look into other painn management alternatives. When the about 30 or 40ish pounds i wont be able to carry him or her because it throws off my balance..other then that we will be fine.

Af will be due 01.01.11..what a way to bring in the new year..but if its gods will we will get a valentines bfp